Focuuuuuuuuuus FOOOOCUSSS good LARRY

I love my husband.

he is very thoughtful and romantic and all the things I am not...spontaneous...and many times he drives me batty.

I do have to say that over the years our relationship has changed significantly with the addition of Alyssa and dogs and birds and jobs and houses. its not bad...its just different, its a work in progress, as we all are really.

Sometimes it creates issues due to the burdens, the weight of these responsibilities we carry. Sometimes, truthfully, I am envious of his ability to not see some of things that need doing, schedules that have been made etc. I wish I didnt have to be such a slave to all things listlike... that i could be literally, list-less.

But that is my burden, not his. larry sent me flowers recently at work. Its a huge surprise, although post AZ golf trip I was a little angry and crazed at all the stuff I had to do in his absence. the flowers remind me of the time I worked at the Womens center in Vienna during my internship after I had a miserable internship at a Law office with a weird dude that was blind and stuttered. the Womens center was nice but I was most of the time unsure as to what I had to do, and so that made for a lot of empty space and confusion for me as I tend to be incessantly busy (thus my blogging) I remember i was having a terrible time with the transition and so many other things and larry sent me roses. I cannot remember if it was 1 dozen or 2 dozen. What I do remember is that we were poor and couldnt probably afford it and that I will never forget how wonderful it felt to be the center of attention..and to feel loved by him. Every time he sends me flowers now I relive that moment in time...just for a second, regardless of where or when I get those flowers.

I love my husband.

sometimes (not surprisingly) I am however unhappy with his inability to focus and finish things. I know its part of his disorder (literally- hahah) but none-the-less sometimes it becomes maddening to try to pick up the pieces after a completely (or seemingly) random person. Luckily Larry has started seeing Dr. Mellow-Vegan recently, and is back on the proper meds...albeit in lesser doses..

I really dont care what dose it is... I am so happy hes back within my world. He can focus again and i feel like hes paying attention again. That makes so much of a difference- really it makes a world of difference...or a garage full of difference since thats what he completely cleaned last night.

It was awesome to get up this AM and be surprised by that. it has been on my todo list for a long time especially with the burgeoning moth population that needs to be ousted from there.

i can now move the motorcycle into the garage and maybe even turn it around so i can drive it straight out vs. backing it out. It will be nice since ive cleaned it up and it looks brand new. I hate it being in the elements during the day.

did I mention I love my husband?....