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Im not sure what to say here. Im at work. Work has been terribly busy. Were transitioning to new systems with a new company with new acronyms and new new new. Nobody seems to be terribly happy about it but as with all change...were paid to make it happen and so we must.

I am busy trying to put my life back together after the dismantling via the purse theft. new cards new purse new glasses new new new. Although the newness of it is fun and intriguing (as I get to pick and choose replacements) the mental and physical cost is high, and exhausting.

this week...this week has been hell.

My computer system went down...you call the company help desk in India, it takes them 4 hours and 4 calls to get anything close to a resolution and then they close the ticket that day and it happens again in a day and a half and then again in another day and a half. In the end I have the same issue that I started with, but on the flip side. basically the first issue i had was that I couldnt reach one network..now I cannot reach the other because the one VPN client company had me uninstall the other VPN client applicaiton and then said..OK were done our side works.

Nice. Real nice.

I wish somebody cared about quality.

Anyway..thats the technical stuff. The home stuff is pretty sucky too. Larrys work has sucked big time. he doesnt come home until late..real late. Its hard to run a family like that.

On the good side..alyssas finally poopin in the toilet (so she earned herself a dora doll) and she also is sleeping in her own bed (sadly her bed is a queen sized 4 poster bed that ive set up with mesh netting held up by butterflies) . Spoiled??? NOOOOOO

So here I am ...late at work on a friday. at least its not yesterday. I dont know.. i think the reason i havent been blogging is that im just numb lately. Too much work, too much home issues, too much larry work issues, too much pet issues.

Its too much. And although the Lamictal seems to be working some..its not working enough and as my behaviorist said.. it appears to turn it into frustration instead of depression...and thats maybe not the best thing either.

Im hopin for Topamax dammit.

I keep workin out. At least thats a constant. I still have my pulled hammy. I bashed my knee in 2 weekends ago directly on the concrete pavement of the garage after I tripped over the dog fence. Its a pretty site. The knee is multicolored (still) extremely painful (still) and the other leg (the ankle that got caught) is swollen and stratched. and purple as well. After going to the doctor he said i had ruptured my bursa (creating water on the knee- otherwise known as bursitis) and gave me Celebrex. My stomach HATES Celebrex so i take it... sparingly.

yesterday Sammie flew away...well she flew up 30 feet into a tree around the corner and up a hill. Larry was stuck at work and it was cold (ok cold for OC is like 65 degrees but alyssa was in shorts) and so I stood outside with child and dogs trying to coax her down.

It didnt happen so I took the fam back inside and went back with a tree limb cutter that had a hook on the other end. Either I was going to chop the limb off and send that bird plummeting.. or I would hook it and bring her down nicely. As much as my frustration level wanted 1, I got 2 as Larry showed up toward the end and helped by grabbing her offa the limb that I was bending down with all my might. F*in' Bird.

We clipped her wings that night
I would have amputated them if it were up to me... but alas it wasnt.

My weight remains sadly the same. Tomorrow I consult with my trainer about what were going to do for the next 3 months or more. Larry and I talk about tryin for another kid next year. Goddam..what are we thinkin???

Anyway. thats my hell oh I mean life. Im going to go and take painkillers now. Preferably with a glass of wine and pass out, but only after doing 2-3 loads of friggin laundry. My life is the spin cycle...