Diminished GFF

i yelled at my daughter last night. it was just a simple thing. She wanted to be lifted over the dog fence vs. pulling it around her. I was trying to do 10 things at once. I had a VERY busy and degrading day in Customer Service Land. .... I felt so bad.

I took it out in the wrong place.

I was recently told by a coworker of mine that I need to lower my expectations.
I also am told I do too much/care too much.
My RD told me I need to Retreat, Regroup, Rest and Recover...

I think maybe their right but I dont know how to stop the upward spin without creating a severe downward spin. perhaps this is the manic without the happiness. I liked the regular manic before. At least I was happy AND productive and not angry/frustrated/dissatisfied and productive.

Im hoping for Topamax. My friend said that it made her dopey. I can deal with dopey. I imagine it will dull the pain of work, and the issues at home, and the daily crutch of being me.

Did i mention that last week I gave up drinking again and also gave up coffee? Oh and this week im limiting my soda intake. What the hell am I thinking?? I am trying to get on track I keep telling myself. But it may be a bad week to stop sniffing glue....so to speak.

Larry was sick last week...as was Alybug. I may be coming down with it since my adrenaline high from work is wearing off... and of course now that i have impending vaca... Sucks.and always happens that way.